I love you and all this bullshit will work out in the end :/ It's only 1 month we have to get through!
This is true. Very true. I need to do an appreciation post. And there are so many pros to having our space to ourselves. It’s all going to work out. Well, except the Papa stuff, but that’s something I shouldn’t fret about because I can’t change it. Man, I have got to stop crying every time I think about him or I’ll dehydrate myself >_<
My mom and uncle are going up to see my Papa, a big 6 day trip to convince him to go into assisted living. Which he said he’d rather die than go into a home, so I don’t know how they’re going to convince him. But he needs looking after and none of us can do it.
Papa is my favorite person in this world. And I’m missing out on a trip to see him because of money. (Which I’ll cover in my Second, I have a post)
I’m trying to keep it together, but I keep thinking about how Papa always asks after my husband and checks to make sure we’re okay. I mean, really, he’s dying a little each day and can’t remember hardly anything, but the things he remembers are things about me and my life and how important it is to look after me.
It’s super fucking hard to keep it together and not just pile up and cry about it.
I’ve only been up for 8 hours, but I’m suddenly super sleepy. I’m just sitting here trying not to fall asleep on my keyboard.
My mate and his game friends are all gaming and I don’t feel up to playing, so I was going to sit here and see if I could snag one of my two people I talk to on fb chat, but they’re not on..and I’m just gonna go nap :P
And please, the next time you’re about to tease someone for being a lowly Hufflepuff, or a slimy Slytherin, or a stuck up Ravenclaw or even a foolish Gryffindor, just remember that we are all Hogwarts students. We’re all part of the magic.
has been more frustrating than it should have been.
Woke up from a delicious dream to have my brain and body invaded by…I don’t know, I need to invent a term for these things that eat at me in a way that would be pleasant and fun if events worked out the way they should. But they don’t, so I’m just pissy and stuck in a loop of grump and festering.
How I’ve felt today:
Chyeah, that’s about how I’ve felt and will continue to feel until I can go to sleep and start over.
I’m glad my good dreams are back, but I’m not happy about them royally fucking up my waking hours.
About writing and how I’d I’m generally excited about the chance of progress.
Wednesday, in all the birthday madness, we snagged a moment to read some fanfiction a mutual friend had been writing. Being a rabid fanfiction reader, my standards were a bit high and I felt the need to brag on some of my own writing. (Not fanfiction, tyvm. I am generally opposed to writing original characters into fanfiction and I’m a big fan of my original character work)
When my bff read the first paragraph of my story, she complimented it on sounding like an actual story.
After that little bit of encouragement, I decided to pull up the story and read it. I hadn’t really looked at it since the middle of November, so I was hesitant.
I just finished it and let me tell you…I love that story. I love Viveca and Roman and their backstories, their interactions, everything.^____^
So, I did a little editing, refreshed myself on where I know they’re going in the written version. ((For reference, their on the first week of June in my written work and I’ve “written” up through January)) I’m considering starting working on the story again. I finished the “written” part around January of this year but I know I’ve got enough of the details memorized to easily wrap it all together.
I could be, possibly, working on my writing again O_O =D